Labour day and Confinement Days

I have brought my little precious darling, Chloe Tan, to this world to her own mummy and daddy on 6 Dec 2007 8.48AM. I have to admit she is a really cute little thing with big big eyes, and long eye lashes. Everything of hers are so small, toes, fingers, head, body, cos she is only a 2.4kg baby as she came out early by 2 weeks.

Labour started at 12.30am on 6 Dec 2007, when I started to feel pain in my stomach, cos everyday I was worrying about how pain and how it begins, so it begins, I couldnt sleep I tot I need to shit so I went to shit, came back tried to sleep but not able to the pain is there. I sat there for an hour going in and out of toilet to see got shit ornot or water bag burst but nothing. At last I woke Mr up at 1.30am he started to stare at me with his big eyes when he woke up. I sat there, feeling abit wet there, but very little, but I rem pple telling me is a big gush of water so I am not sure. End up Mr called Hospital and the nurse said COME LA!

Reached there 2.30pm, checked and confirmed labour is happening. So I was sent to the labour ward and waited. Time passed so slow and I kept looking at the clock, and the pain was excruciating, and really unbearable with each contraction until my whole body tried to defy the pain and stretch my whole body to the fullest but no use. The time was only 3am and I was only 1.5cm dilated. My mind was full of EPIDURAL which was not my original plan. So ended up, I asked for air and gas as a pain relief. I sucked the gas and sucked even more, I can felt myself so high like when u are drunk-kind of feeling, but I can still feel the BIG PAIN subconsciously. I couldn't take it for more than half an hour and I asked for epidural. Signed the consent form. The only thing I dun like about epidural was you will keep shaking and shivering, this is one of the side effect. I felt like I was on drugs and kept shivering and Mr was laughing. Soon after, it take some pain off and I fell asleep as doc say need some energy to PUSH later. But of cos during sleep, I can still feel some pain which i think is good also..

Time passed fast when we both fell asleep and soon was 8am, supposingly I can have my breakfast who knows, the nurse came in and say I am ready for delivery! I was suddenly STUNNED and WIDE AWAKE! Soon after they prepared me, and I was there lying legs spread. Dr Tan came and checked on me. And she left, leaving the nurse there, and cos I was on epidural I suddenly cannot feel anything. Then the nurse say OK, contraction coming, husband hold her back and 1, 2, 3 PUSH!!! I was like PUSH until I wanted to vomit and I felt I dunno I push correctly ornot, felt nothing but only my whole face going red. After a few pushes, Dr Tan returned with another nurse and all started to shout 1,2,3 PUSH very loudly! Even Mr also join in. I felt so scared surrounding by all the PUSHES, 2 nurses and 1 Doc. I tried to notice what Dr Tan was doing when I was pushing, I saw her took scissors and I know she is going to do a epistomy for me. And the next push, I can see she put her hands inside and pull baby out. Scary man! Another little push her whole body was out and I can see her, I touched her, and her body was slippery cos of blood and dunno what substance. I drop tear.

The nurses clear the blood off the baby and Mr taking photos while Dr Tan doing the stitches for me. After that I can carry baby and took some photos. The only thing amazed me was her big eyes open wide open staring around whereas I tot babies all will close eyes and sleep or cry. Lol. I didnt regret going for epidural, I will take that again if I have another baby. Is good to restore energy for the PUSHES.

So days of confinement started after staying in the hospital for 2 nights. Mr only managed to stay only one night with me, supposingly not able to stay at all, but the nurse who is on night shift close one eye. But the second night, the night shift nurse was so insistent that Mr has to go home, and gave a lame excuse saying my neighbour bed is a woman and if anything happen the woman can sue Mr for molest etc. Have you ever heard that a nurse will tell a patient's hubby such thing? I find super ridiculous lo.

Can say days of confinement beginning is really hard to get use to it. Imagine during pre-birth, u bathe everyday but during confinement NO WAY! Maybe after 12 days, then u can get to bathe. So now, my hair is very 'shiny' and greasy and oily, face starting to show pimples already. Mr said my hair so 'liang li' then I joke by saying Ya i can go film the Pantene advert already. Hehe. But one thing i never regret is to cut short my hair. Imagine now with long hair... OMG! Yucks! And the other only thing I cant get used to it is to leave all the dishes washing, etc to the confinement auntie cos I was warned not to touch the tap water unnecessarily. But now i already get used, thinking to live like queen lo. Eat already leave there and then go lie down or go to see baby. But thanks to the massage lady that I called her to wrap my tummy, I can bathe 2 days ago but of cos, still cannot wash hair. But better than nothing. Though happy, but the water prepared for me is damn hot, imagine all the mood to bathe also gone so i just bear with the hot water and just pour over me and faster come out of the bathroom. :( Confinement food also quite standard everyday have to eat fish which is good for me and breastmilk I suppose. But bear with it for one month and everything will be over. Yay! I am really looking forward to the day when baby is one month and everyone will be coming and I can bathe happily and eat what I like. Hehe.. Now the breasts started to feel engorge and I dont know what to do and sms my fren. She said must pump out, so I tried and over a few times managed to get hold of the pumping technique. And after, everyday now, it will start to leak every 2-3 hours and I have to pump, I really felt so lazy, to wash after each use and sterilise. Haiz.. How i wish I got many pumps! Haha..

But now, what I wish is mei mei to be healthy and clear off jaundice. While now I am blogging, she is under the phototherapy light as she was detected to have high jaundice. Really make me heart pain when she started to have her first night in there, she cried non stop from 11pm to 5am and I can even hear her cry in my dreams and the echo even when she is not crying. We slept separate room as I cannot sleep in aircon room which the machine needs to have a cooling temperature. Ended up I too soft hearted though was told not to be, told my MIL to let her sleep for the night and continue the next day. And so she is still sleeping in there, and she did cried in the afternoon, and I tried to console talk to her, it only worked for a while but not long. Really make me heart pain and thinking I bring her into this world to make her suffer which I do not want. Of cos, I couldnt bear with it and I cried one night which I control so hard during the day. I really pray that her jaundice will go down this Sat during the blood test. Mei mei and me have to be strong to counter this.

Looking forward... to see her smile on her face again.