Recently after the previous blog my little princess has become more cranky and cried alot and throw temper alot until I really stress and keep my mind in a whirl. Thinking of foolish things, like just letting her cry and covering my ears or just put her somewhere where I cannot hear her cries. I really guess this is how mums go into depression. Therefore, I kept telling myself I cannot think so much, I must be happy, think of her cries as sing song, and do deep breathing.

Suddenly I feel I am not cut to be a mum, hearing baby cry and I want to shirk responsibility which I think is not the right way. Maybe after all, I am not prepared to be one. I really wondered how my other friends fare. Maybe I should learn how to console a cranky baby. Even when she breastfed for a while she just cry out loud throwing temper.. I really wish I could know what she is trying to tell me... wish she can talk now.. rather than me guessing..

But anyway, I guess I need time and continuous support from Mr. I don't wish to put pressure on him as well kept saying I cannot be a good mum.. I, too, just need loads of consoling and supporting as well.

Now, I guess is the real time to plan what will happen after 3 months when I return back to work.. I don't wish to be separate from my girl..