Last Sat been to the baby doc for Chloe's jaundice review. Been praying so hard these days that she will tide over this. Prayers have been answered. Doc congrats us saying baby's jaundice has dropped to 9.9. I heaved a sigh of relief. But doc say these few days will also go up and down.. but as days pass baby's brain will become tolerant and jaundice will go over. And luckily, she can be put back to breastfeeding to maintain the little bonding between us.. During the doc's visit, the clinic was super crowded with couples and their kids.. and same to us as well, this is the first time I felt the feeling of family.. our little small family.. daddy carrying the bag full of baby's stuffs and mummy carrying the baby and 3 of us waiting for the doc to call her name. The feeling is really great...

And today I felt a sense of great achievement, I changed pampers for Chloe without her crying. Usually I always ask Mr to change cos I scared of her cries. But today she was crying like mad, then i tot she cannot be hungry cos she just eaten, so I checked her pampers while my mil was bathing, and she poo-ed. So I changed for her and she quietly lie there for me to change. I felt so happy for the first time!! I wondered what will be the next happy thing will happen to me and Chloe.

Next week is Xmas already.. a yr without xmas but a baby for a present. Hope my parents and relatives will come but I doubt so cos they have their own party at my aunt's place every year and presents exchanging, etc... So is ok, our new small family will celebrate together.. and I will hang Chloe's first present in her Xmas's socks by her cot. :)

And yes! Today I get to bathe and wash my hair! I damn excited lo... it was like u on the run without bathe and no water and damn dirty and when u see water like you see gold... that kind of feeling.. and I put so much shampoo on my hair... LOL... I wonder when will be the next happy time..