Seemed like quite a long time ever since I last blogged about me and Chloe. Last Sat, Mr was in camp for his reservist, and I had to bring little one to class. Dunno why I really feared bringing her to class, especially to Schicida, maybe cos I felt inferior as other kids can sit down and listen to the teacher and play those games. But not to little one, she will walk around the class, fiddling with other kids' stuffs on the floor, sitting on the window latch instead of the chair. I really don't know what to do, and I kept remembering Mr's words, though she is walking around but she is learning too! But it doesn't seem to me the case, how can she learn when she is not even looking at the teacher. I think even at certain point the teacher too sort of like gave up on her, especially when is her turn to play the ESP games, little one just took a little bit more time to pick and choose or sometimes she will just point at all the answers, the teacher just simply "Oh ok, you choose this lion". And she moved on to the next child. At this point, I felt sad for Chloe being treated like this, of cos she doesn't know what is going on, and she just went to walk again. She simply just like walking! Of cos, me here, kept hoping time faster pass, and get out of the classroom with her. Dunno how much times I have to force carry her back to her own chair. :(

But I felt GOOD when I brought her to source for her full day childcare as she is turning 18months next month. On Sat, I brought her to the Little Skoolhouse at Safra Jurong which was yet to open. But classes for toddlers already filled up fast! So I was there for the second time to actually make payment but hopefully able to enjoy $100 off for 12months which was firstly offered to us a week ago, but due to seats all filled up, she was only able to give us 6 months off, which I was not happy about it. But the principal was nice, she helped me to check if she still can slot in little one, not sure if she was acting to be nice to shoove me off first or she is really nice to help me. But anyways, the main thing, little one and I was happy there, all the teachers there remember her as the cute little one, with pretty eyes, and all like her alot, thanks to her PR skills, I was "frens" with her class teacher, which makes life much easier in future when she attends the class. Must learn to PR also all the way until she enters a good Primary School! Haha.. Kiasu MUM! Today called up the school and the recept told me there might be a space left but got to discuss with the principal if can accept me. GOSH! Really make me nervous! But at the same time, thinking of the whole scenario, principal said all 36 places taken up, recept said now got 23 kids, duno principal want to accept one more to make it 24 or not.. Zzz.. Make me confused who is the true one. Hope I can have good news by today.

Last night, Mr didn't come back home due to staying in camp for night duty. When I came back from class around 10.30pm, little one has not slept. After I bathed, I coaxed her to sleep and even talk to her.. telling her to sleep thru the night, mummy is tired, daddy not coming, so be good and nice to mummy ok.. she didn't reply me though but she has been a good girl and slept thru the night. But only morning, she didn't want me to go to work.. and end up, her nai nai got to lie to her I go toilet and then out of the house door I went. Dunno why I felt bad, cos I feel we shouldn't lie to children especially at her age. Sorry Chloe.

Thank God this Sat Mr can bring Chloe to class, but maybe we won't be continuing the classes anymore due to not enough funds for her to attend this class, since she is also need to go to the fullday school, plus having to pay the maid and the hefty PUB bills.. maybe after all, we don't need the maid anymore since little one is going full day childcare RIGHT!! The most me and Mr tired abit, have to wash own clothes, then we still can hire partime cleaner to do the housechores, can save us hundreds! Wont it be great! Else we totally have no savings to do house renovation or even planning a second one.. DAMN CHAM! :(

After all, I really felt bad, not able to give her the best of the best.. Nothing much me and Mr can do.. hopefully we can get our own home soon.. Kinda excited about the tot of able to design my own home and us living in it, will it be a new lease of life??