Weekends to Batu to celebrate Mr's grandma's birthday. As usual the whole big family gathered.. and as usual, attention is all on Mr's cousin's baby boy. He was cute.. and typically active, but I guess all babies are like this, when they can move, they will try to kick and kick their foot even when drinking milk.

Looking at the baby and the others who are humouring and teasing the baby to make him laugh.. I was thinking to myself, how come I just cant be like them? What will happen when my baby is out? Will I ever make him/her laugh and tease and humour him/her like others? Maybe I am just not too open or not very good with kids yet.. Felt so sad.. but will try to learn.. Hopefully the others will help me to do the humouring and teasing to my baby.. Hehe.. I know for sure will be Cheryl and Charmaine.. Hahaz..

Another cousin of Mr is super noisy and super hyperactive and super.. which I know for sure cannot tahan such kids.. I would not like my kids to be like this, cos it will irriate alot of people and offend alot of people as well.. Due to he is the only boy and youngest in his family, his parents naturally spoilt him and ended up with him having such behaviour.. then tots come to my mind.. "It's really traditional and confirmed that all families wanted to have a boy and all attention will be on boys.. and girls will be neglected." For me, I felt that this thinking is totally wrong, whether is boy or girl, is still our flesh and blood and all needs to be doted on and not biased against. I was still telling Mr's sis that if my kid is like that, I will really smack him infront of people, cos I don't want people to point fingers or think that this kid has no good upbringing. But again, not to be rude, I felt that it might just be the country one lives in or the culture of the family..

Said so much, hopefully I can properly bring up my own kid who will be coming to this world soon..